"Working On A Mystery"

Someone, perhaps someones, from Grand Rapids is visiting my site, directly, more than I have the last couple days.  That's almost creepy.  Who are you?

I've been studying a lot lately, really getting into the nitty-gritty of what I can do to my diet and nutrition to really feel better.  Sleep has definitely helped, but I've still been having my down days.  I felt great last night at work and tested my blood pressure and heart rate.  Heart rate was really relaxed for a night at work at 65 while I sat for only a moment.  And, my blood pressure was something like 105/65.  I always have really good blood pressure, but its that heart rate I struggle with.  I think feeling fully rested after sleeping on and off all day really made the difference.  But, I've been eating a lot better the last couple of days too.

I found NoMeatAthlete.com and feel like I've read from one page to the next for several hours over the last couple days.  I'm not sure if I will ever be able to watch the "Earthlings" movie, as the trailer was enough to make me never want to eat meat again, but the information on the site certainly makes me want to work harder on my diet.  We are what we eat.  Our futures come from what we do today.

The future.

I've been living one day at a time, but I always find myself dating based on what I want for my future.  It's lead me down the right path so far and keeps me close to the trail, so why should I quit?  I hate dating.  It's awful.  I don't specifically like at this point in my life having someone around 24-7.  Another reason, perhaps, that Oregon was so difficult for me.  I'm not used to being around any one person!  I need a best friend, though, if its ever to work; Oregon just wasn't that.  And, yes, my progress is slow.

The list of things that I would love to do right now in my life is so extensive.  I'm seriously thinking about what my brother said to me on one very inspiring and emotional night.  He made a comment on my paintings that really touched my heart, and then went on to humor me with one sad looking stick figure.  Ha.  I may start painting again.  It's one of those things that I can get very lost in, and I may just have luck with a piece or two in the future.  It would entertain me through the tough days at least.

I'm going to have to get really tough with myself about my training schedules as well.  I've nearly taped them to my forehead, but I haven't been resting and eating consistently and similarly have been falling off schedule.  My friend Dan ensures me I probably needed the break, as I probably was taking on too much too fast.  I should know better.  Ha.  I'm back to lifting the iron, which feels great.  I'm still dealing with issues I'd rather be done with, but the process of finding a way to manage the syptoms has been more pleasant.  I think I'm just about there; I just dislike how much time it takes to go the extra distance in preventing a bad day!  Ha.

Keep up with me!  I have a lot of things going on right now!