Saturday, October 3, 2009

I Need to Update!

This college semester has me weighed down. I moved again in the last two weeks. I am working a little bit less, but I am reading so much more. I am hopeful in building a relationship with a certain someone but am facing the challenge of my past on this possible future. I pray for inner peace. I am tired these days. I was so exhausted yesterday that when I went up to my room to study, I ended up literally passing out on my bed with my books open, computer on, lights on, and didnt wake up until my normal 4am weekday alarms went off. I know I am not alone. I know I have less than thirty weeks of college before graduation. I know when the right time comes that I will find someone who will love me for me despite my past, and we will still struggle and also find many joys together. I know that I should not worry or feel like I have heavy weights upon my shoulders. I just wish it was just a bit easier. I want my life to slow down in pace. I cannot take on one more thing right now. I need rest. I need relaxation. I need solid, normal, good REM sleep! I want to experience dreams again. I want to feel a bit more freedom. All soon enough, right? The days are coming. My days are coming.