Legs and back. Torturing my body with lunges, squats, and pull ups. Feeling the weights pulling down with gravity against my body's strength. Feeling the exhaustion slowly settling in. Feeling every push. Feeling every pull. Standing up. Power. Legs and back. "Now bring it on!"
Focusing on this continuous battle against gravity and additional weights: this is my fight. "Get out of my way." I'm "doing this everyday." I'm exercising "at any time in the morning or even the evening," and, if twice is necessary, I'm doing it. "Now bring it on!"
Building muscles. Testing the limits of this body. Testing the limits of my mind. Pushing forward. Pulling up. I'm bringing it on!
I'm feeling alright today, but I'm ready for more! I'm thinking after doing more lunges than squats this morning, stair climbing may have to be in my near future, within the remainder of the day. But first, I need a shower! Stand tall y'all and "bring it on!"
Song for today: "Bring It On" by Daddy Yankee
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
"Got A Smiling Addiction"
Alkaline Trio's "This Addiction" would have been more appropriate but did not exist within the player files: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7fJincn4Yg
Those who know me well know I've battled an addiction with caffeine. Those who are following me on bodybuilding.com know I've had a lot of progress in getting off the pills and stopping the drinking of caffeine containing beverages. Let me tell you though, today I felt really worn down and had to have one of my caffeine pills that also contain theanine. I needed a pick-me-up like no other! Normally I have "a smiling addiction" throughout my days, but this last week I've been cranky with everyone!
I have a lot to be excited for, and I know I am just under a lot of pressure and stress right now. There are several things that get to me on a daily basis that I shouldnt allow to happen. Many thanks to Tammy this morning for reminding me that I am appreciated for the work that I do, Brian for admitting that he knows I'm underpaid, and Meryl for just being you. Thank you to my Mr. Incredible, though I don't know if you read this or not, but you calm me in my storms even if I don't show it. I cannot wait for vacation!
For much too long I've had "a smiling addiction." It shines on the world to cover up the feelings on the inside. Recently, as the inside feelings were showing their heads, I found myself back at the medicine cabinet to feed my dying smile, to "say goodbye to all [my] pain and feel alive. The feeling [was] gone. [I] had [the] feel of [my] heart in mind; it’s but a gift for the leading blind. Why should we change when we’ve got no will?"
Wait a match-stricking-the-box moment; I'm already on fire! I've got will. This will has some serious training to do! This will managed to give Mr. Incredible the flight he was searching for. This will is going to keep me away from caffeine, except for that which is consumed prior to heavy lifting. I will escape the grasps of this addiction. Smile or not, I will not find myself looking like the smiling man on the youtube.com video! "Everything will be just fine."
Much love to you all!
Song for today: "Smiling Addiction" by The Wright Brothers
Those who know me well know I've battled an addiction with caffeine. Those who are following me on bodybuilding.com know I've had a lot of progress in getting off the pills and stopping the drinking of caffeine containing beverages. Let me tell you though, today I felt really worn down and had to have one of my caffeine pills that also contain theanine. I needed a pick-me-up like no other! Normally I have "a smiling addiction" throughout my days, but this last week I've been cranky with everyone!
I have a lot to be excited for, and I know I am just under a lot of pressure and stress right now. There are several things that get to me on a daily basis that I shouldnt allow to happen. Many thanks to Tammy this morning for reminding me that I am appreciated for the work that I do, Brian for admitting that he knows I'm underpaid, and Meryl for just being you. Thank you to my Mr. Incredible, though I don't know if you read this or not, but you calm me in my storms even if I don't show it. I cannot wait for vacation!
For much too long I've had "a smiling addiction." It shines on the world to cover up the feelings on the inside. Recently, as the inside feelings were showing their heads, I found myself back at the medicine cabinet to feed my dying smile, to "say goodbye to all [my] pain and feel alive. The feeling [was] gone. [I] had [the] feel of [my] heart in mind; it’s but a gift for the leading blind. Why should we change when we’ve got no will?"
Wait a match-stricking-the-box moment; I'm already on fire! I've got will. This will has some serious training to do! This will managed to give Mr. Incredible the flight he was searching for. This will is going to keep me away from caffeine, except for that which is consumed prior to heavy lifting. I will escape the grasps of this addiction. Smile or not, I will not find myself looking like the smiling man on the youtube.com video! "Everything will be just fine."
Much love to you all!
Song for today: "Smiling Addiction" by The Wright Brothers
Saturday, January 9, 2010
“I’m Like BOOM!”
After yesterday’s chest and back workout with more push ups and pull ups than I would want to do on any particular day, I’m sore! I’m feeling grrreat! Everything is coming together beautifully. I had one too many days off this week from training, but I’m getting back into the normality of the training. “So, let me tell ya the deal!” I’m in there, and I’m doin’ it!
And with every extension, “I’m like boom!”
“I’m a lover and a fighter;” I love training and am fighting through the constant pain that comes with it. I feel amazing. Today I hit my legs hard. I did go a bit light today, but I got in the sets I needed to prepare me for a heavier leg day. We’ll see how I feel tomorrow. Either way, I love how much better I feel while my life is more balanced.
And with every press, “I’m like boom!”
The sun was out today, but it sure is deceiving! It’s still very cold, but we should be gaining ten degrees here in the next week. I look forward to that! I’m tired of having my respiratory system burned out from the cold. At least the sun is melting the snow off of the roof.
And with every curl, “I’m like boom!”
Keep up the good work out there! Much love.
Today’s song: “Here Comes the Boom” by Nelly
And with every extension, “I’m like boom!”
“I’m a lover and a fighter;” I love training and am fighting through the constant pain that comes with it. I feel amazing. Today I hit my legs hard. I did go a bit light today, but I got in the sets I needed to prepare me for a heavier leg day. We’ll see how I feel tomorrow. Either way, I love how much better I feel while my life is more balanced.
And with every press, “I’m like boom!”
The sun was out today, but it sure is deceiving! It’s still very cold, but we should be gaining ten degrees here in the next week. I look forward to that! I’m tired of having my respiratory system burned out from the cold. At least the sun is melting the snow off of the roof.
And with every curl, “I’m like boom!”
Keep up the good work out there! Much love.
Today’s song: “Here Comes the Boom” by Nelly
Thursday, January 7, 2010
“Don’t Give Up”
I’ve had three days of workouts in the last week. I think this is the beginning of something great. Ha. It’s been a long time coming. It’s always been the path I’ve walked, just now I’m learning to run it. I’m working on the long run.
I have good news! First, with the help of a friend, I think I may have found a protein powder that is Sara worthy. I have yet to purchase or to taste it, but it’s in the shopping cart waiting patiently for me. I’ve also started the spring cleaning early and am moving things out and selling things, and making some pretty pennies! I am just about ready to restart my certification studies and take the exam. Here’s to January!
Hold on, I “need a second to breathe.” [Takes a deep breath.]
I’m on the brink of taking the next step in a very significant situation of my life. This is something great that puts at risk the security I have built up. My walls may come crashing down. This may be the best thing that has ever happened to me, regardless of what happens next. But, even better than that, I think the outcome will be great and cannot wait to see what it brings. I’m putting my financial goals and security at risk. And, this is all most exciting!
There is a part of me that continues to ask “should I be worried?” But, I have the least bit of fear. I have covered all of my bases thus far. I have been honest with everything. I’m not about to lose my work. I’m not about to ruin my family relationships. I am not about to lose my emotional stability. I have everything to gain. And, I hope with every ounce of me that gaining is what happens. I don’t like to lose.
So, here I go to venture on and continue with the plan. Am I ready for what this may bring? Even if I may not understand what is really on the table when you do, I flipped my coin a long time ago and have yet to pick it off the table. It still stands as it landed on the table. There’s no turning back. There’s no running in the opposite direction.
"I think you could save my life."
Body sculping and bodybuilding are words that the trainers at my gym have laughed at again and again. When thinking like a body architect for so long, it crushed me as often as I heard them laugh at it. Everyone has taken their opportunity to poke fun at the thought of me taking on such a venture. Oh the comments I have heard! But, they’ve slowed down. They know quite well now that I’m not kidding. This is me. Take it or leave it. I’m a lover, not a fighter. But, this is where my fight takes full force. Don’t mess with my dreams.
“I won’t let you down.”
Smiles to you!
Today’s song: “Whaddaya Want From Me?” by Adam Lambert
I have good news! First, with the help of a friend, I think I may have found a protein powder that is Sara worthy. I have yet to purchase or to taste it, but it’s in the shopping cart waiting patiently for me. I’ve also started the spring cleaning early and am moving things out and selling things, and making some pretty pennies! I am just about ready to restart my certification studies and take the exam. Here’s to January!
Hold on, I “need a second to breathe.” [Takes a deep breath.]
I’m on the brink of taking the next step in a very significant situation of my life. This is something great that puts at risk the security I have built up. My walls may come crashing down. This may be the best thing that has ever happened to me, regardless of what happens next. But, even better than that, I think the outcome will be great and cannot wait to see what it brings. I’m putting my financial goals and security at risk. And, this is all most exciting!
There is a part of me that continues to ask “should I be worried?” But, I have the least bit of fear. I have covered all of my bases thus far. I have been honest with everything. I’m not about to lose my work. I’m not about to ruin my family relationships. I am not about to lose my emotional stability. I have everything to gain. And, I hope with every ounce of me that gaining is what happens. I don’t like to lose.
So, here I go to venture on and continue with the plan. Am I ready for what this may bring? Even if I may not understand what is really on the table when you do, I flipped my coin a long time ago and have yet to pick it off the table. It still stands as it landed on the table. There’s no turning back. There’s no running in the opposite direction.
"I think you could save my life."
Body sculping and bodybuilding are words that the trainers at my gym have laughed at again and again. When thinking like a body architect for so long, it crushed me as often as I heard them laugh at it. Everyone has taken their opportunity to poke fun at the thought of me taking on such a venture. Oh the comments I have heard! But, they’ve slowed down. They know quite well now that I’m not kidding. This is me. Take it or leave it. I’m a lover, not a fighter. But, this is where my fight takes full force. Don’t mess with my dreams.
“I won’t let you down.”
Smiles to you!
Today’s song: “Whaddaya Want From Me?” by Adam Lambert
Saturday, January 2, 2010
"Getting Sized Up"
Happy New Year! I cannot believe it’s 2010! The years go faster, though the time is supposedly going by at the same rate. Either way, I feel this year will bring great change, and I’m “fired up!”
One thing I’ve learned to tolerate this last month: taking the dogs out in 12 degrees Fahrenheit (-11.1 Celsius). Going out and feeling my fingers fight against frostbite and coming back with all ten: priceless. Going out not knowing what kind of people or animals we’ll cross paths with: priceless. Getting out of the house with more purpose than going to my places of work: exciting. Can you hear me laughing? Haha.
My dreams in bodybuilding, or rather body sculpting towards professional status, are back at the forefront of my desires. I’m fighting a battle with myself, as this undesirable weather has me wanting to do anything that doesn’t require moving. Bad, I know! I’m heading out today to change that. Not letting anything get in my way: priceless.
There are a lot of things that need to be done this month. I’ve got some serious studying to do when I come home today for the certification I plan on earning before the end of the month. I spoke with my brother New Year’s eve about getting new pictures and measurements taken. Another mission to take on is finding a protein powder that is lactose free and tastes as good as my Oryx did. And, I need to get in the gym. So, I better run before my time is up!
“Everybody get fired up!”
Today’s song: “Fired Up” by Hush
One thing I’ve learned to tolerate this last month: taking the dogs out in 12 degrees Fahrenheit (-11.1 Celsius). Going out and feeling my fingers fight against frostbite and coming back with all ten: priceless. Going out not knowing what kind of people or animals we’ll cross paths with: priceless. Getting out of the house with more purpose than going to my places of work: exciting. Can you hear me laughing? Haha.
My dreams in bodybuilding, or rather body sculpting towards professional status, are back at the forefront of my desires. I’m fighting a battle with myself, as this undesirable weather has me wanting to do anything that doesn’t require moving. Bad, I know! I’m heading out today to change that. Not letting anything get in my way: priceless.
There are a lot of things that need to be done this month. I’ve got some serious studying to do when I come home today for the certification I plan on earning before the end of the month. I spoke with my brother New Year’s eve about getting new pictures and measurements taken. Another mission to take on is finding a protein powder that is lactose free and tastes as good as my Oryx did. And, I need to get in the gym. So, I better run before my time is up!
“Everybody get fired up!”
Today’s song: “Fired Up” by Hush
Friday, January 1, 2010
Briefly Summing Up The Months In 2009
January – I flushed my back up supply of caffeine pills.
February – I cried to Paul Wickham’s song “True Love”
March – I was torn and missed the gym. I needed my training more than anything.
April – April showers brought no showers. Salsa and chips soothed my lonely soul.
May – Relocation. It came like the vacation I needed. Summer was due!
June – Between May and August training and running became my love again. I sought out God with every moment.
July – My search continued. Too many nights of “Friends” eased my cold summer blues.
August – I think this restarted the rollerblading. “Anticancer” became my life mission. Southern charm made me lose all faith in followers.
September – Drop ins were welcome. Help moving was appreciated. I realized I needed to learn to say no, to not try to satisfy everyone all the time. I took a step back and let things go.
October – Yet another birthday, another funeral, another year almost over. My gambling in May backfired, but I let it go and gave up a fight. Too much was happening all too fast.
November – Increased work kept me distracted. I began to loosen up. I was led to “The Chariots of the Gods?”
December – I took a chance on a whim. Motivation was reignited. Zimmie was back.
December was the best month of the year by far! So much had happened over the year; I can barely believe all the change that occurred! October was the worst month. Losing dad is still especially hard at times, but somehow I feel like he is present with me more now than I have felt in a long time. I know 2010 will be much better, as I finally graduate with my BS degree this year! Whoo!
Today’s Music Choice: The “300 Violin Orchestra”
February – I cried to Paul Wickham’s song “True Love”
March – I was torn and missed the gym. I needed my training more than anything.
April – April showers brought no showers. Salsa and chips soothed my lonely soul.
May – Relocation. It came like the vacation I needed. Summer was due!
June – Between May and August training and running became my love again. I sought out God with every moment.
July – My search continued. Too many nights of “Friends” eased my cold summer blues.
August – I think this restarted the rollerblading. “Anticancer” became my life mission. Southern charm made me lose all faith in followers.
September – Drop ins were welcome. Help moving was appreciated. I realized I needed to learn to say no, to not try to satisfy everyone all the time. I took a step back and let things go.
October – Yet another birthday, another funeral, another year almost over. My gambling in May backfired, but I let it go and gave up a fight. Too much was happening all too fast.
November – Increased work kept me distracted. I began to loosen up. I was led to “The Chariots of the Gods?”
December – I took a chance on a whim. Motivation was reignited. Zimmie was back.
December was the best month of the year by far! So much had happened over the year; I can barely believe all the change that occurred! October was the worst month. Losing dad is still especially hard at times, but somehow I feel like he is present with me more now than I have felt in a long time. I know 2010 will be much better, as I finally graduate with my BS degree this year! Whoo!
Today’s Music Choice: The “300 Violin Orchestra”
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