December.

First full week at new job working and not training.  I've had my handful of nightmares and am fighting off a cold.  I hope my box of tissues lasts through the morning.  I wish I had someone to bring me another carton of orange juice and some redbox movies.

I'm nervous about this next week, as each week my standards and requirements increase.  I need to get rid of this cold to be on my best game come Monday.  Monday mail and meetings, on top of the normal business of a Monday, sends my head spinning on overload.  This is my last Monday to sit a bit on the sidelines; next week I take full charge.

But, besides not feeling well the last two days, I've felt great, and have been getting along well with my new short term goals to old aspirations.  I'm going to bed for now, though; I just don't feel well today.

Happy holidays are coming fast!  Enjoy them!

November.

Good feelings.  I earned the job.  I bought the car.  I even fixed the bike, maybe.  It's a gorgeous day out, so I will have to see how well I did.  There is still much to do, always.

I think I just ate my fourth banana for the day, and it's not even noon yet.  My inspiration: Click Here!

Thanksgiving day is coming.  I hope this warmer weather holds up.  I'd like to get some more running in without putting the teeth on the bottom of my shoes!

October.

So, I've been eating more raw the last couple months and just ran into this today while googling if I may eat okra raw:

http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2008/01/raw-food-diet-day-1/

Life is rather well, though I think I may be moving again rather soon.  The winter weather is bound to hit soon, so a closer distance to work is highly desired.  I love moving though!  It gives me the opportunity to evaluate and discover all of the interesting things I have acquired and am still holding onto.  Then, I am also allowed this great transition in which I can get rid of as many of those things as I want before hauling my two car loads from one place to the next.  I'd really like to get it down to one car load before moving!

The search for another vehicle is in progress as well, though I'm in no immediate hurry at the moment.  2011 has been constant change and surprise-birthing growth.  How about that!  Thank goodness there are only a couple months left!

Big Sky Country Conversation

If you're here reading this, you've either landed upon it from my body fitness site link, my facebook link, or have randomly by search engine for something that probably isn't here.  If you're here from facebook and the big sky country, then you shouldn't be here.  RATHER, you should be calling me or texting me even if I'm at work or sleeping or cleaning up poopy cat butts.  This is my life right now, and, if you miss me, you should tell me.

Last night's conversation felt good, despite the fact of things being far from optimal in my family.  I miss talking to you.  I think I long missed talking to you, perhaps for many many months.  Teleport.  I could have used a hug.  I could have used a really good haven't-seen-Sara-in-months kind of hug.  I can play it strong, but I'm still at less than optimal myself.  I am really sorry I am not better for you, or was better for you when we spent time together.  But, last night sure was nice.

I still don't understand what happened.  I wish I did.  I had been so frustrated and angry trying to figure it out for so long, and then last night we spoke again.  You don't have to check-in here.  I hardly have the time or patience to write anymore, especially with limited internet and a failing computer.  Just call me.  Then teleport.

"Working On A Mystery"

Someone, perhaps someones, from Grand Rapids is visiting my site, directly, more than I have the last couple days.  That's almost creepy.  Who are you?

I've been studying a lot lately, really getting into the nitty-gritty of what I can do to my diet and nutrition to really feel better.  Sleep has definitely helped, but I've still been having my down days.  I felt great last night at work and tested my blood pressure and heart rate.  Heart rate was really relaxed for a night at work at 65 while I sat for only a moment.  And, my blood pressure was something like 105/65.  I always have really good blood pressure, but its that heart rate I struggle with.  I think feeling fully rested after sleeping on and off all day really made the difference.  But, I've been eating a lot better the last couple of days too.

I found NoMeatAthlete.com and feel like I've read from one page to the next for several hours over the last couple days.  I'm not sure if I will ever be able to watch the "Earthlings" movie, as the trailer was enough to make me never want to eat meat again, but the information on the site certainly makes me want to work harder on my diet.  We are what we eat.  Our futures come from what we do today.

The future.

I've been living one day at a time, but I always find myself dating based on what I want for my future.  It's lead me down the right path so far and keeps me close to the trail, so why should I quit?  I hate dating.  It's awful.  I don't specifically like at this point in my life having someone around 24-7.  Another reason, perhaps, that Oregon was so difficult for me.  I'm not used to being around any one person!  I need a best friend, though, if its ever to work; Oregon just wasn't that.  And, yes, my progress is slow.

The list of things that I would love to do right now in my life is so extensive.  I'm seriously thinking about what my brother said to me on one very inspiring and emotional night.  He made a comment on my paintings that really touched my heart, and then went on to humor me with one sad looking stick figure.  Ha.  I may start painting again.  It's one of those things that I can get very lost in, and I may just have luck with a piece or two in the future.  It would entertain me through the tough days at least.

I'm going to have to get really tough with myself about my training schedules as well.  I've nearly taped them to my forehead, but I haven't been resting and eating consistently and similarly have been falling off schedule.  My friend Dan ensures me I probably needed the break, as I probably was taking on too much too fast.  I should know better.  Ha.  I'm back to lifting the iron, which feels great.  I'm still dealing with issues I'd rather be done with, but the process of finding a way to manage the syptoms has been more pleasant.  I think I'm just about there; I just dislike how much time it takes to go the extra distance in preventing a bad day!  Ha.

Keep up with me!  I have a lot of things going on right now!